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Vlad 2.0...Coming soon!
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Warning: It's gonna be one of those posts.

Take that to mean every possible thing that it could mean.
And it probably won't be entertaining. Nor will it make sense.

If one were to take out CSz, I lead a life of mediocrity. Now, you may disagree with this. You may say I lead a very interesting life, but I really dont. I wake up, do some errands check the email/lj, and go to work. I go to the gym occasionally. I go to school on Thursdays. Thats about it.

I've deleted the above paragraph about 4 times already and re-written it, but it still doesnt say what I want it to say. I mean, how is it possible to explain the complete and utter boredom I feel sometimes? I'm a smart guy, and I do not like routine. I think thats why I love improv. I find I am pushing myself to extremes so that I can sooner be rid of this situation I am in. I am now working 4 to 5 days a week at outback simply so I can put more money in the bank so I can guy a car quicker. Because the quicker I buy a car, the quicker I can move out on my own and the quicker I move out on my own the quicker my life will take on a life of its own because I'll be out and living life and not just watching it on TV. But that doesnt make any sense either. Because when I move out the living situation wont change. I'll just have less furniture. If I move out I'll be paying rent so I'll have to work 5 days a week anyway. Which leaves no room for a social life. Oh wait I have no social life now.

Theres this girl Tabitha, at Outback...take to mean whatever you wish. I don't think I have a chance with her. I'm almost positive she has a boyfriend.
There's this girl Debby, in my creative writing class. I fell for her the first day. I also fell for another girl in the class, Alicia (pronounced uh-lee-shuh). Just like I fall for every girl I come in contact with. Alicia has a boyfriend. Anyways I'm such a fuckin sap. And the fact is, one of the reasons I wanna move out is so I can have a place to take girls. I also work out cuz I think it'll get me chicks. It has yet to work. (If I were in the mood, there'd be a joke here, maybe somethin like "but workin out has gotten me discount on gatorade")
What? Anyways, Debby is a cool person and seems like we could be friends had we actually met in real life and not in the constraints of a one day a week class.

I'm gonna ask Debby for her screenname or something, cuz even if she does have a boyfriend she's still a cool chick. And it'd be nice to have someone objective to bounce writing ideas off of. And if she doesnt have a boyfriend, well, we'll see what happens. Seeing as how I work 6 days a week (CSZ atleast 2 days a week, plus 4 days at OB) I dont expect much to happen, but on the other hand I could use some human interaction (no pun intended, 'action' get it?).

One of the things I lost while I was sick (fom monday thru like now) was the ability to be civil to my family. Another thing I lost was my ability to be clever and sharp tongued. Apparently, being funny takes alot of energy and I cant be doing that while my body is fighting disease. I was afraid that I would still be sick on thursday when I got to see Debby, and I'd have to feign being funny. Kind of like people muster up their strength to fight the bad guy for one last round, I'd muster up all my mental and comic abilities so I could throw in a few stabs at people's stories during the workshop.
Its 4am and my life is not as dramatic as Susanna's, so I can't make my journal friends only. But this entry is friends only because I felt like it. Not that I want my life to be as dramatic as susanna's but then again, even if I were in her circumstances different things would happen because we have different views and opinions and react differently to situations. And there's me analyzing things to much.
I'm so OVER me. When's Vlad 2.0 comin out?

Current Mood: Introspective

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sparkfrost From: sparkfrost Date: November 20th, 2003 06:14 am (UTC) (Link)
be grateful that your life is not as dramatic as mine. its interesting, but painful. anyhow, just go for this girl. talk to her, whatever. you dont always have to be funny you know. you're a cool person, your sense of humor just adds to that. um, and thats about it.
filmgeek84 From: filmgeek84 Date: November 20th, 2003 07:35 am (UTC) (Link)
Well, it's difficult to give proper encouragement on an LJ post, but I'll try. I know your life is frustrating right now, but I promise you, things will get better. It may take a while, yes, but things will improve. The important thing is, you're making it happen. You know what your goals are, and you're working towards them. I know it's no fun right now, but think of how awesome your life will be once you achieve your goals. Things are gonna suck overall right now pretty much no matter what-sitting around waiting for your paychecks to add up is never any fun. But there are ways to make it better. Talk to this Debby girl-maybe a few dates is just what you need. Go visit a friend somewhere to get away for a few days-if you ever want to come down to the tropics, I've got a pullout with your name on it. Find something that makes you happy (I know improv does, but that doesn't take up very much time, so if there's no way to spend more time doing that, then find something else too), and run with it. Get an agent; audition at community theaters. Most of all, just know that things will get better in time. I hope my rambling helped, and if you ever need to talk, you know where to find me.
From: truthseeker18 Date: November 20th, 2003 08:18 pm (UTC) (Link)
Vlad, what you said really strikes a chord with what I'm feeling right now. We should talk when I come home next week for Thanksgiving. I miss our middle of the night conversations! I know we haven't been talking all that much recently, but I hope you know that I love you :)
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